I'll start by stating I have anxiety and suffer panic attacks and have done for many years. I'm on medication and have been to therapy a few times. Both of the above is 90% caused by very specific health anxieties but over time I have become a more nervous person in general then I used to be.
I'm struggling with feeling overwhelmed with life in general. Apart from my anxiety about health fears I have a good one. Happy marriage, amazing friends, great kids and a job I adore. But it's just all becoming too much. My job is only part time but the work is fast paced and I have to be on top of my game. I do a lot outside of my hours (we all do it's an absolutely addicting, very creative role and we are a small but damn hardworking team who help a lot of people and I love it). On top of that I'm also doing a part time masters course from home, plus I have the kids, housework, pets and just usual life admin. My hubby and kids do help out at home and work are great with checking in on me about my workload and how I'm feeling/doing, but even so I'm really feeling the pressure.
I'm starting to feel anxious about my job which never ever happens but I'm always feeling on edge and like I need to be there doing something. If I have to leave something unfinished I fret and Im always making lists of things I need to do. One of the reasons I do so much more then my contracted hours is that when I get ideas and inspiration I want to do something about it immediately. I'm literally tapping in the morning waiting for the time to leave for work. I'm a well stablished Uni student but struggling to find time and motivation and I'm in danger of falling behind which is not like me. I also feel like I'm not spending as much quality time with my family as I'd like to.
I feel like I'm unravelling trying to keep up with it all. I feel.anxious as soon as I wake up about all the things I need to do that day although normally I thrive on being busy and feeling accomplished. Because I'm often anxious anyway worrying about non existent health woes it does nt take much for this additional anxiety to become panic.
I know I'm probably trying to do to much and trying too hard to be good at everything. I'm finding it nearly impossible to just relax and switch off and that's contributing to my anxiety which is increasing my panic attacks.
Any tips on creating a better balance and just learning to let things go and chill out? I know my health anxiety is the biggest problem but I'm no closer to beating that demon and I don't want everything else in my life to cause me stress too!