Did anyone else lose passion for their vocation after having a child?
I set up my own company and was super entrepreneurial before becoming a mum, I raised nearly a million in investments by myself and started a company from a passion project, something to help others, and something that I worked on all hours of the day.
I took maternity leave and then there was Covid, but now my DD is in nursery full time and I'm back at work. However I feel I've lost my mojo. I can't give the same commitment as before, as I have to pick up my DD at a certain time and she is my priority, if she's sick or whatever. I feel I don't have the headspace to carry on thinking about work in my evenings whilst dealing with bathtime etc, and I'm way more tired than I ever was.
People at work talk to me as they always did, expecting great things etc but I feel like I wish I could just take time away. I feel under pressure to keep building on what I've achieved professionally but I also feel guilty about my DD. Also (even if I could afford to) I don't want to give it all up and be a SAHP either as I know that wouldn't fulfil me.
Basically I can't do either role properly and feel dispassionately about it all.
Does this get better?