Hi I turned 50 this year and so far have felt nothing but dread. Like this is the slow decline to old age and death! Yep I'm such a positive person 😂 I've had my kids and have a dgs who I see almost daily after school. I also have a 17 yr old at home and my eldest dd back with us for a year. My life is full and happy. I have great friends, marriage of 27 years, both sets of parents still alive and very active. But I feel like it's too late to achieve great things now or branch out in a different career path. I've had to stop working for 8 years now due to chronic illness. I can do odd days here and there but can't commit to anything. We not well off but don't go without. Why do I feel like this is it now? I don't feel old enough in my head to be half a century. I know many old friends didn't make it to my age so I am grateful for that and feel selfish. Is this menopause hormones messing with me? Please give me a kick up the bum!!!!