Long story short after DC 2 we fell pregnant stupidly and made a choice not to continue the pregnancy at 4 weeks so super early due to financial / age gaps reasons. My husband didn’t respond well to the news and if he had been super supportive I don’t think we would have made that choice.
Later on started ttc for DC3 we wanted but major issues, my health was at risk and had to end the pregnancy.
Been told we can ttc again but it would be risky and my health is at risk.
i feel like I’m being punished, I feel so angry at my husband. Why couldn’t we have kept the first pregnancy then this wouldn’t have happened! I have no idea how to move on from this. I feel so upset and even had some thoughts that aren’t great.
i feel like a horrible person, my babies must hate me. I feel so alone