I am feeling so rubbish this week.
No responses needed, I just need to write it all down.
Peri menopausal but fobbed off by doctors as too young. Suffering really badly with anxiety the last couple of years which has been getting worse for a while (doctors appointment tomorrow). All peri related and given fluoxetine but its not cutting it at all. Gained loads of weight the last year and just feel horrible in my own skin.
Single parent to a primary aged child. Work full time and studying too. In a new relationship of 14 months all has been going really well.
Last week we had a holiday with me and my son, the guy I am dating and his 2 children. We had a really lovely time but things have definitely changed since we've been back and that is increasing my anxiety. I think things have jumped ahead to fast recently and it has scared him away. I am given him space and know it will be OK, but I still feel shitty.
The majority of it is coming from the fact my son is on holiday with his dad. He went away last Saturday and is due back this Sunday. I really am not enjoying him being away. Been video calling often and he is having a great time but I am struggling. My anxiety is almost crippling at times and I am not sure why. I do all the right things to try and control it.
I am trying to fill my time this week with lots of things I love and don't get the opportunity to do as a single parent. I should be loving this time but I feel sick, anxious and stressed and I hate it! 😫