Growing up I was one of 3, I was the middle child, my mum ( biological grandma ) used to always physically hit me, rag my hair, smack me etc but never my brother or sister. I don't know why she just chose me. I remember things she's said such as telling me I should have died when I was recovering in hospital at 8 years old after being hit by a car, telling me to jump in the pond and drown myself when we was at a park and much more things. Growing up age 9/10 I was SA and I told a family member whilst I was at there house and they phoned my mum and took me home. When I got there the abuser had being invited to my house and my mum was screaming at me calling me a liar and to get out of her house whilst he was stood smirking at me, ever since I can remember growing up she would call me (Sl4g, wh0re etc ) when I was just a kid. She found out I was self harming at 11 and beat me up because of it. The list goes on but this just sums up a few things of what she's like she doesn't do it anymore because I'm now 19 but I wrote this today because I got a new job and told her she said " why the f*ck would you get a job you won't stick to it anyway" but my brother and sister got a great amount of praise when they got there job, she's never proud of me and I'm the least favourite why does she hate me? What could I have ever done to her. They all pretend like none of it ever happened ( mum, sister, brother ) they call me delusional and say it's all in my head and I've made it up.