Everything feels wrong… (depression, menopause, something else?)

[Spoonz]

I’m not sure what’s happened to me. Over the last few weeks (maybe more) I’ve started to feel like everything is wrong. I have lost my work confidence. I’m short with the kids. And I’m carrying around an enormous amount of guilt, anxiety and stress. I’m worried about everything but nothing in particular. Nothing feels joyful anymore. I feel like I’m in limbo. Like I’m waiting for something good to happen but it never comes.

My life is objectively good. Supportive husband and family, healthy kids, nice house, good job, no money worries. But I don’t feel like I can enjoy anything fully. On paper my life should be fantastic, but right now the joy is just out of reach.

What is this? If it’s depression, why now? I can’t think of a trigger. Menopause? I’m ‘only’ 41 and recent blood tests said my hormones were ok. I have been having the most awful 2-week PMT, which is what triggered the blood tests. But this bad feeling is permanent.

I will make a GP appointment. But has anyone who’s been here know what am I asking for… anti-depressants? Something to deal with the PMT? HRT? I’m totally lost.

It sounds familiar as perimenopause to me.

Thank you. I did wonder about the menopause. But when I had my bloods done the GP said she even if hormones had come back as abnormal there was nothing she could do. She said I wasn’t ready for HRT. Maybe I should try the pill?

I'm not sure what the answer is. I don't want HRT due to family health. The pill sent me loopy when younger so I'm not keen to try that again. I'm muddling through with supplements which have helped a bit but I still don't feel quite right. I'm 47 and have felt this way for a couple of years.