Back in October I was trying to get my 2 year old ready to meet friends at a farm place. She was in a terrible mood, she didn't want to go, and wouldn't get ready. It had been a fraught morning. Then she decided that she wanted to do up the straps on her waterproofs by herself - fine. I started getting other bits ready and left her to it. Except she was screaming because she couldn't do it, and then screaming at me for trying to help her - typical toddler stuff, I know. But I just lost it. I grabbed the strap from her, and in doing so I ended up pulling her over 😢
Obviously afterwards I apologised and said how wrong my behaviour was, we both cried, we both cuddled.
This was 5 months ago now and I often lay awake crying about it at night. I'm fully prepared for the flaming I'm about to get. I just want to know how common it is for other people to lose it that badly? Am I a monster? I didn't mean to pull her over and I'd never, ever intentionally hurt her. Nothing like that has happened since. I just feel so much guilt and I can't get past it 😔