Evening everyone x am sitting here watching Saturday Night Takeaway with th DCs. We watch it regularly and it brings us lots of joy 😊 but this week, for some reason , I feel really sad and emotional. Simple reason being , as a working single parent I suspect I will never ever be able to take my children to an amazing disney/theme park / water holiday . Uou know , dream holiday type thing. Water parks , sunshine etc . I don't know if I will even be able to ever afford an all inclusive europe holiday. I just feel sad for them . It was my choice to finally leave an abusive marriage and I haven't regretted it for a minute - they are so lovely and they understand why we are likely to never be able to afford that . They know I work my day job and have 4 cash in hand cleaning jobs also so they would never dream of complaining but I do feel a bit of a failure. I know it's melancholy and usual I am a bit better and more upbeat but April us the month of price rises kicking in and after having done my monthly budget , I realise that it's going to be up to the wire again and I will never be able to do it. Anyway I suppose I was hoping someone could just tell.me to woman up , at least we have a roof over our heads and a stable job and lots of love ...you know , important things !!.
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