I have never felt this bad in my entire life
I’m sat on my sofa crying. Been to view the most perfect house today (new build that’s being built). I’ve been with my BF for 6 years so taken a while to get here, came home and applied for the mortgage in principal and got rejected 😔 I’ve checked my credit file and I have a default from a few years ago that is now settled and a couple of other small things that have meant i’m now in the poor section. I have a few thousand in savings and about £700 in debt so I’ve just paid that off, I had no idea as I’ve had nothing in credit since I had a loan for my car 6 years ago that’s now paid off. Going to speak to a broker tomorrow and my BF might be able to buy the house alone but still, I feel like such a failure. I earn about £30,000 so can afford a mortgage.
On top of this I’m massively overweight, the fattest I’ve ever been. Size 18-20. Shameful. Feel like I’m in a spiral
DS has just got back from his dads and already I’ve told him off, he’s such a good boy but just caught him in a small lie and lost it 😭
Do you ever just look around your life and wonder how you got here? I’m currently sat in my council flat with DS in his room probably thinking I’m a shit mum, BF is sat at his house
probably thinking what a shit girlfriend I am, fat (he’s really fit) and can’t even buy a house.
not sure where it all went wrong