I've realised my self esteem is on the floor. I feel like I'm crap at everything. My mum invited me to lunch with some old friends and I don't want to go. I'm too ashamed of how I look. I'm fat and frumpy. I'm so unfit. I have a child whose mental health is so bad he's self harming and having thoughts of suicide. I feel like such a crap parent. Trying to get him support is so hard. I struggle to sleep terrified he's harming himself. I know I need to make changes I just don't know where to start.