Feel so sad this evening, I know why but don't know how to process.
Dd 20 was at her dad's, ( we're long divorced, new marriages and children - don't generally miss the marriage, he was an alcoholic )
She sent me a video of her playing with his "new" daughter ( she's 2) and it made me feel in a totally unexpected way.
I don't know how to explain and theres no one i can say it to in rl but I feel so so sad, regret, like they should both be mine and his. I could have had 2 daughters who grew up together with both parents. What our life should have been. I don't know.
I loved him so much but alcoholism destroyed us.
It'll pass I'm sure and I do love my second husband and we have a son who is amazing.
Just very unexpected feelings.