I really struggle with any responsibility in work and constantly question myself. How can I improve?

[Meltinthemiddle]

It makes me anxious, stressed and I can't sleep. I'm constantly doubting myself and overthinking. I work in a nursery and alot responsibility is passed on to the key worker, not alot of support from manager with regards to big things but she seems to micro manage the small things which I actually feel more confident with 😔 but even so I've felt this in most jobs. I have to attend child protection meetings, speak to professionals, parents, complete paper work and I'm also a first aider. I've been there 4mths after a break, and feel like I've been thrown in. Even though I've worked in similar role before I was there 9 years so the work environment is completely different. I don't know if it's just me, a new job or combination of both. I just ate responsibility if I'm honest even the smallest amount cause me self doubt.

@Meltinthemiddle I know it's a cliche but it is true that the more you do something, the easier it gets. Lots of people feel like this about talking in important meetings etc. Are you able to speak to your line manager and ask for some guidance?

Are you sure you want to work in a nursery? Any job caring for children is going to come with a lot of responsibility and if you really don’t like that maybe you should consider a different line of work.

That’s a lot to take on. Do you have supervision where you can discuss the safeguarding issues?

its 4 months so partly could be the change- or it could be an unsupportive work environment.
Honestly for all the responsibility I’d be looking for an nhs / education role. Harder in some respects but unless in a qualified role you won’t have that level of responsibility.

Did you feel like this at your 9 year job? If not it is most likely because it is still new and your confidence will grow. See how you feel in another two months.

Thanks for the replies. I think I'm Peri which maybe contributing to my anxiety. Also the stress of a new job and the environment I'm working in maybe causing me doubt as I've had no feedback or supervision with how I'm doing so just hoping I'm doing it's right and I haven't forgot something! Some things and the way they work is very different to what I'm used to. I was really confident in my previous job because I had that feedback and guidance if I was unsure. Also there were things the manager took on and delt with, whereas here it seems to be placed on the individual.