Grieving child loss / not having more

[Cobrastar]

I have two amazing children but we always planned on three. Recent pregnancy ended in a termination as my body started to fail. Catching covid sent my HG out of control and I was in / out hospital multiple times. Liver started to fail and my heart rate was super high.

I pretty much was begging for a termination for a planned and wanted pregnancy as I felt like dying. I couldn’t walk, eat or drink. Even getting to the bathroom was difficult. After the loss it took 4 weeks to get back to the pre pregnancy physical health.

I really want another baby to complete our family but I’m scared. I dont think I can ever fall pregnant again. How do you get over the urge to have another to complete the family? How can I ever risk my life again and my babies not having a mother around.

Any tips on how to focus on the positives and push this sadness away?

im so sorry baby, I’m sorry I wasnt stronger for you. I love you always I’m sorry

@Cobrastar I have no experience in this or direct advice for you but I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your situation & that I hope you find peace soon. Please be kind to yourself, our bodies do strange things sometimes, it wasn't in your control. Take care ♡

I would highly suggest speaking to pregnancy sickness support. They are a great charity offering help, advice and even counselling now I believe if you want it. They also just have great HG resources .

So sorry you had to go through this, sending hugs from one HG sufferer to another x

Hi OP - how are you now? I’m currently in the throes of this having had to terminate for maternal health - different reasons but I don’t think I’d have survived. The pain when it was a wanted/planned baby & then feeling that opportunity is now gone is just horrible. Did you manage to get over the urge?I’m fed up of seeing babies and feeling so sad that my body let me down when I should just be grateful for the children I already have