My ex lost someone very close to him who I was also once close to & I went to the funeral. It was something I debated doing but other mutual friends were going and we ended up talking for a long time at the wake.
We were together for 5 years and friends a further 7 years after that until he ghosted me. Looking back I think he had fallen back in love with me but knew I wasn't interested so moved on. Two years ago he got in touch to apologised & tell me how much he still cherished the friendship but stopped short of asking to meet up.
Anyway seeing him was like no time had passed. And the shocking thing was I realized how much love I still have for him and I could see he still had a soft spot for me too. We said some meaningful things that we never said before & it gave me a sense of closure. I don't think I'm likely to see him again.
I don't know why I'm posting really, just because I don't feel there's anyone I'd tell this to as it sounds a bit silly. Who knew I'd feel so sad be this affected after so many years?