Mummy guilt

[mummytoalice]

I’ve just woken as DD (4 mos) woke for a feed and realised I’d left her lovey in her crib, right next to her head/face. She’s been asleep for seven hours (not unusual for her) but I feel terrible. I do everything to have a safe sleep setting and follow lullaby trust guidelines.

DH, DS (3), myself, and DD have all been ill this week and I’m knackered. I’m generally so careful to make sure the lovey doesn’t go in bed with her, can believe I’ve left it in. I feel sick thinking about what could have happened 😓😓 Not sure I’ll be able to sleep the rest of the night.

Nothing would have happened…. Every parent has done much worse than that and DC still happy and well

you’re just very very knackered
sending hugs x

The guilt makes you a better parent. We all mess up a bit, but then you do the best you can. Parenting is constant learning and changing, no parent is perfect, so not sleeping and getting worked up will only make you a worse parent really

Thank you both xx

Shes just still so tiny and I know if she’d managed to pull it over her face she wouldn’t have been able to get it off. I had postnatal anxiety and intrusive thoughts with my first, mostly centred around cot death and DS being hurt. I’ve been doing well with DD but now this. Not sure if I’m appropriately concerned or my worries are excessive now😢

We’ve all done things like this, and she’s fine. I’ve fallen asleep twice while winding DS in bed after a feed and woken with a start to find him draped across me. Once, with DP in the bed who’d come to bed, seen us like this, and fallen asleep instead of picking him off me and putting him safely in the next-to-me. Exhaustion fucks your brain. Your baby is fine and it’s OK.

@bussteward thank you xx

Raising kids it honestly seems a miracle that you can keep them alive. Every situation you can think of for many many more years in your head will result in death. Even walking down the street you will think worst case of a random car potentially killing you all. It's a horrible side effect of being a mum