This time last year I was suicidal (obvious TW)

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I’m not now but 9am on the 9th Feb I had an ambulance out as I’d told NHS24 what I was away to do, and had a lovely GP on phone for 30 minutes trying to calm me down .

My life has changed enormously now and I’m glad I didn’t go through with it, so very very glad, but I’m a bit tearful tonight realising the date tomorrow and that a whole year has passed . A friend’s taking me out for coffee tomorrow which will help but I can’t believe it’s a whole year.

I feel like I should do something nice for myself to mark the date but I don’t know what exactly. Don’t know if it’s right to ‘celebrate’ that I didn’t give up.

No advice as such but just wanted to say well done! I hope you’re so proud of yourself, you’ve moved mountains x

Hi. You should definitely celebrate OP. I've never come close but felt like I don't want to be here many times without actually doing anything about it. What amazes me is how often something seemingly insignificant catches me off guard and makes me so glad and grateful to be alive. I wish you good health, both physical and mental and a future that's full of daily moments of joy.

It's absolutely right to celebrate that didn't give up!! And please know this post has given me such a warm smile this evening, I'm so glad you're in a good place now ❤️

Absolutely you should celebrate! What do you think about self gifting a piece of jewellery to mark a momentous year? Doesn’t have to be expensive.

As previous posters have said you should get yourself something nice - some sort of treat. I’ve never attempted anything but I do have passing thoughts about it when I think my life is pointless. I’m so glad to hear that you’re happy not to have done it.

I am so glad you survived. You're amazing.

What about writing a thank you letter to that lovely doctor, if you know who it was? I'm sure it'll be on record somewhere. It must have been so difficult for them to talk to you and I'm sure a note to say everything is good now would be really welcomed.

I don't normally open threads with titles like this, but I hoped for a positive development, and I was right to!

You absolutely should celebrate, and I might even pour myself a little glass of the wine I opened earlier and toast you. It's lovely to hear of someone making such progress after such a dark time.

If you know the name of that GP, I second the idea of contacting them. I'm sure they'd be absolutely thrilled to hear from you.

Have a lovely day tomorrow, and if you're tempted to look back, only do so to see how far you've come.

We are usually stronger than we ever believe we could be. You are proof of this. Celebrate your strength and determination OP!!

Well done on getting through such a hard time xx

Well done and thank you for sharing. You might not realise it but your story is helping give others hope.

Do something nice for yourself, buy some flowers, try that chocolate you always craved, buy yourself some earrings. Xx