I've NC for this as it's quite outing.
Don't even know where to start as everything feels such a mess!
I've worked in the same job for 15 years. Did a qualification to be a counsellor a few years ago but for many reasons (young children, got divorced etc) I didn't see any clients. I felt that now would be a good time to start, so I've been volunteering for a charity over the past year, just a few hours a week, and then decided to work privately. I find the work quite hard, because it's not the job I've done for 15 years and know inside out, it's quite challenging and I find myself getting quite anxious incase I'm not good enough!
Anyway, I sent up my own private practice but managed to mess up my pricing strategy (totally my own fault for not thinking enough about it) and I've realised that by seeing clients I'll actually be losing money because of all my outgoings (room hire, supervision, insurance etc). I can't not see the clients, as they have signed up and it's all been agreed, but I also feel completely stupid for doing this and losing money.
I feel trapped. I used to have a bit of a side hustle that I used to really enjoy, but wasn't reliable hours, and now that I've set up the private practice and have a commitment to those clients, I won't be able to be flexible to do the fun stuff.
I also feel that having my own business needs me to be super organised, which I do not feel is one of my strengths!
I'm not able to sleep at night thinking about how stupid I've been with this venture and regretting it before I even start but don't know what to do.
I feel completely lost and I don't think this is what I want to be doing at all, or maybe it's all just my anxiety and it will be fine? I just feel miserable. I have the most brilliant kids and lovely partner and a reliable job and am finally doing the one thing that I thought I would do until I retire, but there's no joy in any of it.
Help?!