I remember with my firstborn just being hit by overwhelming sadness and regret and feeling like I didn't know what to do with him and disconnected from him and like I'd ruined my life. I told my midwife who said about baby blues and it all passed within a couple of days. I've had my second and I'm surprised how different I've felt, instantly just smitten and like I know exactly how to be a newborn mum. I've been on cloud nine to be honest. I used to feel sick as evening crept up fearing the night feeds and lack of sleep and this time I love bringing my baby up to bed and feeding him to sleep and soaking up the cuddles during nightfeeds. I hated the newborn stage last time and have been terrified of doing it again, but I really am loving it.
However I've just got this constant sinking stomach feeling. Like something really bad is happening and I'm trying to ignore it. Like that punch in the gut, panic, anxiety feeling. I can't shift it. But it's not related to the baby, it's just general? I've been panicking about everything from money, to work, to my husband etc even though there's no immediate reason to. Just wondering what's happening to me! It's ruining my happy newborn bubble!