Everything feels like it's going wrong.
I work in a fast paced environment which involves visiting families at their home. There's been lots of changes recently and work is being piled on us at the moment.
My anxiety is awful. I can't focus on anything at work. My brain is foggy. I keep getting headaches.
As well as this, my lovey child has been struggling massively with school and mental health at the moment and has barely been in since the beginning of January.
My manager knows about my stress levels and challenges at home, and will occasionally ask how I am, but I (unhelpfully) automatically say "I'm ok" and then the conversation moves on swiftly.
In fact, the last time I told her I was incredibly stressed, I was given more work to do the same day with strict timescales.
Despite all of this, I feel incredibly guilty about potentially going on sick leave and leaving everyone with more work to do. I've not phoned the doctor yet and keep feeling weak for not being able to deal with the stress and thinking "why can't I cope?"
Gah. It feels good getting it out.