Totally bored of cooking and eating

[WhiteJeans07]

Hello,

I'm in a big rut with cooking. Every time I make something it's never as nice as I hope it will be. I try to cook from scratch more often than not but it's tempting to just say fuck it and get more convenience type stuff in. It's getting to the point where I'm bored of eating- for someone diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder, that's quite something.

My DF is dying of lung cancer and I don't think he has longer than a few weeks so I'm not sure whether my lack of get up and go is anything to do with that but I just can't be arsed anymore. Whatever I cook, DD3 will probably whine about unless it's pasta or toast anyway.

What do you do when you're in this rut? I do Gousto some weeks but don't want to get it every week. Should I just embrace the hummus pot and leave them all to it 🥴

First of all very sorry about your DF.
I'm sure that his condition is putting you in a sort of pre-grieving state of mind and lack of appetite is not surprising when you are sad & worried.

My mantra: fed is best.
Get the convenience stuff, carton soups & garlic bread, pizzas, hummus, fresh or frozen fruit for smoothies, yogurt pots, pre-cut veg, pre-made meals, cereal & porridge, energy bars etc - whatever makes life easier. Do it.

Your mind is elsewhere and you don't need time & focus wasted on listening to the voice in your head saying to cook from scratch or feel guilty if you don't!
Food is morally neautral.
You maybe less able to create perfectly nutritious & balanced meals but when you are having a hard time all calories are good calories!

Eat ice cream if that's all you can manage. Pancakes & banana? perfect.
I give you permission to take it as easy as possible.
Fed is best.
Big hugs