Had a termination last September. Me and my boyfriend were having a tough year after our first baby was born (he was 9mo when I had the termination)
it was an unplanned pregnancy and realistically not sure how I would’ve coped if I continued with it. DS doesn’t sleep through (and at that time was waking hourly pretty much, he wakes less now but still does)
We couldn’t afford 2x nursery feee, DS is in 4 days a week so we’d have to do that or I’d have to go part time and I was happy in my job so didn’t want to do that.
and I felt like I wanted to see DS grow a bit more alone and be aware when I have his sibling!
but lately I’ve been so broody? Since his first birthday a few weeks ago. I feel so evil and guilty for it.
I see pregnancy and birth announcements and think I can’t wait to experience that again one day.
I had the chance and I chose not to. I just feel so horrible for thinking these things and thinking about how I look forward to having another baby in the future.