I hate Christmas, find it really suffocating and fake. It highlights all the shitty stuff in my family and just generally drains me
I've been lucky enough to be off work for most of the period, and I go back next Tuesday. I mostly enjoy my job, and like my colleagues, so I'm not dreading it from that pov. What I am dreading is the cheery 'had a good Christmas?' and 'did you have a lovely Christmas?' from people. They're only being nice so I don't want to snarl at them or shut them down. If you have similar feelings about Christmas, how do you respond to this stuff, without plastering on a fake smile and lying, coz I don't think I have that in me right now?