Death anxiety 6 days after having a baby

[Madmax1992]

Is it hormonal? I'm really worried this feeling won't go away and its spoiling time with our new baby because I feel so anxious.

It started around day 3 home and has continued to spiral over the last few days. I am worrying about dying now, dying when I'm old, not being able to see my partner or children and family again. I know when I'm dead I won't know about it but this anxiety is irrational in that sense and I'm not finding anything comforting.

I've been googling about deathbed visions, near death experiences and things like that...it's driving me up the wall but I cant help it.

Has anyone else felt like this and it's gone away? I'm trying to distract myself but I'm feeling really clingy to my oh. This is baby number 3 and I can't really remember how I felt after my other 2 as they are now 9 and 5 but I have suffered with anxiety around health in my early 20s (I'm 30 now).

Any reassurance or support greatly appreciated xx

Thankyou for replying, it feels so lonely feeling this way. I have been talking to my partner and he said I need to try and distract myself but it's so hard, especially during nights when I'm up feeding the baby my mind seems to race xx

I remember having a feeling like that after my first was born - that realisation that you love this little human so much that the fear of them dying is overwhelming.
I didn't find it to be as consuming as you are though and wonder if speaking the your midwife would be useful?
Congratulations on your new baby x