So. What’s your thoughts as I feel terrible.
I was released from a stay in hosp yesterday after being dosed up with what seemed a copious amount of Morphine, anyhow, I got home with a bottle of Morphine solution to take as required, the pain was going with me for a bit longer.
Anyhow, today I’ve taken a short walk, a stumble to a well known freezer shop chain and after studying my list I’d made on my phone, which only had five items but I needed a reminder, says how messed up I was, am. So I grabbed a bottle of fizzy drink, item one, items two and three were the same, two small bags of
piri piri rice, then after standing there composing myself, yes, I was struggling at this stage, so checking the phone once more I head to get a chocolate bar and bag of wine gums.
Then I realised I couldn’t find my drink, at this stage I’m beyond confused! Checking the shelves in front of me, no it wasn’t with the sweets so I assumed I left it in a freezer, so back to the rice, not there either, I gave up and got another. Heading to the check out I go to the check out, grabbed my walker and paid, not from the wallet which had around £400 in cash credit and debit cards. But the change in my pocket covered what I had, which was a bottle of lucazade.
I put in my bag and walked out, next thing I know I have two guys standing there saying you’ve not paid for the contents on of my bag, definitely I opened the bad and showed them and pointed to the girl at the till that served me, whereupon the fella said yes, you paid for the drink but not the other stuff so I walked back in the store and emptied the bag, in it was, yes, you’ve guessed, the bottle of drink I lost, plus two bags of rice, now totally confused, so started to point out I had paid, yes, he said for the drink! 1 bottle. Exhaling deeply I let them take the rice and the drink, although I would’ve paid had I been asked.
Offering an excuse about the meds I apologised and left, unfazed which was odd but clearly I wasn’t in my right mind, two things that stuck me is this, there was a used bottle of the fizzy drink I wanted filled with with water in my bag, clearly it was meant to act as a mental note to self, quite why I can’t even fathom why I’d do such a thing. Now the kicker.
I got home, and felt fairly emotionless, that was until I take my coat off and find one large bar of chocolate and a packet of wine gums in the pocket, maybe £3 worth.
So. Here’s the thing, I feel terrible, I know it’s only a couple of quid but I feel bad, part of me wants to take them back, another part wants to write an apology to the company and inclose a cheque for said amount, another is telling me to stay clear and give £50 to a charity, maybe a food bank.
I’ve never stolen anything in my life so I thought being there are a cross section of society on here I thought I’d ask for opinions and will do an Elon and abide by the results of the poll.
To confirm. This message has taken three hours to write so it should indicate how off I am, but more importantly how I feel, mainly because I’ve gone from Ho Ho Ho to Oh Oh Oh.