Biggest regrets of your life - did they impact your life?

[neilyoungismyhero]

I woke up this morning to my 71st birthday and I cried because I missed my mum. She has been gone 70 years. I never knew her but missed her all my life. I ended up living with my maternal GM and my DF and for a while my DB who was considerably older than me.

I had witnessed my DGM crying at my DMs grave so didn't want to cause further pain by asking about Mum and my Dad was lacking in empathy and was a tough man who my MGM despised. I was always torn in loyalty between them and ended up hating my DF. I don't remember having any sort of conversation with him ever, so certainly couldn't ask him about his dead wife. Same with my brother. So the years went by, we all became estranged, my DF died, My brother is now dead too. There's no one left who knew her and now I'll never know her either.
I so bitterly regret not having those conversations. I want to be buried with her that's about all I have left. It's so bloody sad.

Jeez I feel like Billy no mates

Are you the OP?

yes, I seem to have 2 user names not sure how that happened but as Im not getting any response might just give up altogether.

Oh op that’s awful! Is there anything that you can look back on… pictures etc?

I suppose mine is that I worked to much/hard, missed my kids growing up and they resented me for it. Sure we have lots of nice things but I’ve learnt the hard way that none of that really matters!

I feel very sad for you. I met my father as an adult before he died 5yrs later but there is still a lot unresolved.

i also regret I didn’t give DD1 one more night, it might have made all the difference or it might not, I’ll never know

Op that's so sad. I'm sorry.

I am beginning to regret meeting DH and this is causing me some internal conflict as we have DC together. However, I'm fairly certain that I would have had a better time with someone else.

That's so sad @neilyoungismyhero. Do
you have any pictures of your mum? Are there any friends of your brother left who would've heard him talk about her? I know what you mean though - both my parents are gone now, as are all their siblings. Nobody to ask questions to :(.

As an aside, I hope you've managed to have a happy birthday 🎂

So sorry OP that you never got to meet your mum. That must be so hard. Love is eternal. Your love for her and hers for you is timeless.

Your mum is your mum my darling, even though she was gone before you could remember her presence. I'm sorry that you are feeling so sad. Sending love x