Background always had MH issues but the last 5 years have been relatively controlled. Odd wobbles of anxiety but most of the time ok.
No longer on mediation blah blah
However the last week or so ive felt so overwhelmed, the lead to xmas etc.
One of my triggers is clutter /not being able to control it.
Yesterday we had an amazing day, in Fact xmas eve we sae family and swapped gifts, then yesterday a lovely day but omg the mess. And yes I KNOW that part of xmas. And i didnt show it to the dcs, we played games unboxed toys etc.
Today another lovely family day out.
Got home the dcs are unwell and generally overwhelmed by the last 3 days
Every room every corner every cupboard has stuff in that isnt normally, the lights blew on the tree,
Dh put the dcs to bed and for some reason i was so overwhelmed by the mess, clutter etc i felt like i was going to have a panic attack! I haven't had one in probably 2 years?
Dh asked what we could do to sort it. And i said get the tree away get the clutter away.. I can't cope!
So after that checking i was sure he got in the attic and got the decorations boxes down.
I feel awful as of course its only boxing day but i felt i was drowning in everything around me.
Dh is back to work tomorrow, i have both the youngest dcs poorly. Dsc have gone back to their dm
Ive listed what needs to be done this week that i can do around the dcs.
I already feel a weight has lifted. But im telling myself the dcs have had an amazing week in fact, each day for the last 9 days they've seen family or friends. Seen santa, been to zoo had lovely stuff to play with. And now they have space to enjoy their new toys.
I never take tree down this early normally.