I really don’t think I can get through tomorrow

[blackheartsgirl]

anyone else feeling bloody awful about Christmas Day and all that it brings.

don’t come at me, I had some awful news today, my mum is also rather poorly with cancer,
Found out this afternoonmy aunts cancer is terminal and it’s my second Xmas with out late dh.

now my adult ds is being an absolute arse about tomorrow, refusing to make plans until this evening then expecting me to change the entire day to suit him (he does have some mental health issues so it’s all very difficult)

I’ve just had a panic attack, yes I actually have, my heartbeat is all over the place.

I feel sick.

anyone feel similar, any calming techniques?

Things have worked out ok so far, I managed to get some sleep and we managed to open our presents in peace.
ds turned up at 9 with dgd and then his dad turned up as well to see our dgd.

they’ve all gone now until this afternoon and then only ds is coming for dinner, finally made up his mind. I’ve had a glass of wine already while dd1 has took the dog and her sisters out for a walk. I’m still feeling a little bit on edge but it’s better. Thank you all for the handholding x

Well done for hanging in there. Hope the rest of your day goes well. Your daughter sounds lovely.