Well not quite it will be on a different day, I just need to vent about how monumentally shit this Christmas currently is and I'm soo hoping to actually be able to enjoy the day whenever it might be.
We have all come down with this awful lurg that's going around, husband has been off work for 2 weeks now, I sound awful but luckily feel mostly ok on that front but I'm also going through my second miscarriage. I passed it this morning luckily with pain only like a bad period, its early at 6 weeks and my second miscarriage but it's so different to my last one,I was not prepared for what I would pass. I had to do it alone, at home because my husband was in a&e with our son who hasn't eaten or drank properly for a week and is quite poorly so I'm now sat up in the children's ward with him, luckily my bleeding and pain has now massively eased so I'm able to be here with him as husband is also pretty poorly.
This all means that we probably wont be going to my parents for Christmas, we were due to travel tomorrow as they live 3.5 hours away but looks like thats not happening, who knows if we will be going or when Christmas will be at this point. We have no food in because we wernt planning to be here, not even basics really as we were using up so nothing went off.
Don't really know what I'm after in this thread I guess I just needed to write all of that down somewhere and acknowledge that this is probably the worst Christmas ever because I don't want to say that outloud. It would take the hope away that we might still manage to have a day together to watch my son enjoy himself.