I am unbelievably tired but...

[ABrotherWhoLooksLikeHellMugYou]

...I can still hear DD, 7, warbling in her bed. She's like a permanently 'on' juke box. Currently we have songs from Matilda that she only knows 30% of the words to.

DS10 is calling for the cat to come and cuddle with him in a very high squeaky voice and I've left DP wrapping presents and tidying for his family visiting tomorrow, which is all very egalitarian I'm sure, but I feel guilty being in bed and I struggle getting to sleep when I can hear the smalls still obviously awake.

DP sent me to bed because I was dozing on the sofa. I really should go to sleep. Who else is being daft right now...?

I bought myself a sleep eye mask with built in Bluetooth speakers. 5 mins of audio book and I'm out like a light! 😂

That made me laugh OP, sorry. I'm mid thirties and DP messaged from upstairs the other day that me trying (and failing) in a high pitched voice to get the puppy to come and cuddle with me on the sofa was keeping him up, bit mortifying.

I have trouble sleeping at the best of times but have covid at the moment so feel pretty ropey. I know that means there's even more reason to rest but instead i'm on Amazon wondering if I really want to buy a 2kg box of celebrations for £10, and thinking about all of my carefully selected christmas food that I know I won't now actually be able to taste. I'm beyond knackered so I've no idea why I'm doing any of it.

It sounds like your DC are perfectly happy in their own little worlds despite being awake and that your DP has things covered downstairs. You have absolutely nothing you should be doing, nothing to feel guilty about and deserve a rest. I'll try and tell myself the same.

Yeah, don't do the Celebrations. Wait until you can taste them again before you binge on all the calories.

I did actually crash out soon after writing my initial post, but woke up at 2am because my hair was hurting. Yeah.
I don't know either. Also needing the loo.

Wondering whether I am feeling strong enough to brave the chilly loo seat or just lie here in discomfort until I hopefully fall asleep again.

Also there are coco pops downstairs and I really fancy a bowl.

God 3am is the pits.

And my hair still hurts.