I just feel a bit sad. It seems every year Christmas and holidays amplify the cracks in our marriage.
I can bumble along and get on with my own life, looking after my boys because we are busy and set up not to need DH (shift worker). Having him at home creates hope he might contribute to family life but he doesn’t, so I get angry and resentful and the atmosphere is horrible. I am fully aware that I should control my reactions and not try to control his behaviour but, goodness, Im tired of pretending everything is ok.
I just feel sad, Christmas should be joyful, but I just dread him being around. I’ve lost my joy.
Any tips on how I can mask these feelings to give my boys the Christmas they deserve?