I've made my mind up to finally leave my 'd'p.
The relationship is volatile and unpredictable. He'll say he's ending things one day then the next be upset I won't sleep with him.
Arguments are over the top, mountains out of molehills.
Often turn to him getting violent, not necessarily towards me (I'm not regularly beaten or anything like that) but he smashed a door trying to get to me mid arguement and slapped me across the face.
We are not married.
He works a 9-5.
I recieve carers allowance for one of our disabled dc. I recently lost my job.
2 kids together.
He will want 50% custody. I'd be happy for this to happen but I don't trust his temper around the dc. I want him to get anger management or at least see a doc about the sudden temper. But he insists its not an anger problem, its a girlfriend problem. My fault basically.
I have no ducks to really get in a row.
But my kids don't deserve to grow up in this environment for another day.
My head is swimming. This has been a long time coming but now I just feel lost.
And completely and utterly alone.