What happened to me?

[Khyfxq]

I feel like before the pandemic, I was a kinder and more compassionate person. Since we've emerged from it, I've been wfh so a bit more isolated and had a few traumatic personal experiences of loss and grief (not covid related) and not sure when or how but it feels like brain has changed and where I was once friendly/ compassionate, I'm now colder and give less of a shit about other people. It feels really sad to admit that and I'd love to feel warmer towards others again but not sure what's happened to me?

The upside is I care a lot less about what others think whereas before I was a lot more desperate to please and be liked.

Is this some sort of trauma or post Covid reaction that others can relate to? Have my difficult experiences made me more self absorbed and selfish in some way? Maybe I've just matured and become less worried about others opinions? No idea what it is but I do feel different.

I could have written this six months ago, though for me it was specifically lockdown damage.

now I don't worry that I've got very little compassion. I was never a people pleaser though, but I was a lot more human.

I'm startinng to see the advantages of my altered state though. From your last para, it sounds like maybe you are too?

Yes I think part of me appreciates being less bothered about people's opinions or the need to be liked but I wish I could be a little bit warmer sometimes. Previously some 'friends' Did take advantage of this nature though but I lost touch with most of them over past few years

Me too op but not sure if it is lockdown or me getting older and running out of fucks to give.

Sometimes l feel glad l have realised that a lot of people are just users and l don't need to accommodate their needs but other tines l feel sad that l am turning into a grumpy old bag!

I feel a bit like this, but for me it’s linked with the fact there is just so many problems in society that I feel powerless,and feel like I can do nothing anyway so why bother caring. I used to give lots to charity and be softer, but now I feel a more overwhelming urge to protect me and mine. I don’t like it as I have always believed that the meaning of life is to help others, but at the moment I just can’t.

Sounds like peri menopause. How old are you ?

I feel a lot this way after trauma (not Covid related). Lock downs were alright by me. For me, it's just not having the spare emotional energy.

I'm also perimenopausal but I don't think it's that.

You get used to being a certain way. Last week I finally remembered how much fun being sociable with people you really like is. And I had been going out this whole time just not really feeling it. Keep trying and you will get there

Sounds like peri menopause. How old are you ?

Heh, my first thoughts too.

I'm too young for the menopause, currently pregnant actually. Maybe it is hormone related