Weird situation today.
Driving home from work I felt lightheaded and heavy lidded and just odd. I can’t explain it better really. I figured I hadn’t eaten well enough and I’d feel better after a bite to eat. DH got dinner and I wasn’t hungry but forced it down because I thought I might feel better. I didn’t. I then feel like I had a bit of a shift, I didn’t hyperventilate or anything but was breathing heavily and shaking. I took myself to bed.
I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I know DH is coming to bed, my teeth are clenched, heart thumping and breathing heavily again. I have some water and promptly feel sick. Get up for a wee feel dizzy and lightheaded.
And I start crying because I’m angry at myself. For not being able to stop breathing weirdly and crying. Wondering if it’s hormonal because I feel like a nutter and my hormones do that sometimes.
So as not to drip feed… I’m pregnant (second trimester) we’re going through some unsavoury changes at work, and Christmas is our busiest time of year so maybe it is…
I don’t feel stressed particularly, I’ve felt more stressed in the past but maybe it’s creeping up on me? Writing it out makes me think it’s stress. I can’t get back to sleep now, feel sick and weird. Don’t think I’ll actually be sick, it’s not like morning sickness. Heart still racing and my chest hurts. Nothing serious just uncomfortable. So mad at myself.
Not sure what I’m looking for, maybe just a hug.