I know my parents tried their hardest and they aren’t bad people but I’m really disappointed I don’t have the parents I wanted. I my mother in particular could be more of the mothers on the telly but I don’t think she will ever change.
She has some narcissistic traits and my older sibling is no contact or very low contact. If I ever have a problem someone always has it worse and I should just suck it up. She loves babies and I have a few siblings. I don’t remember them ever coming to award ceremonies and I have a core memory getting a prize at school in secondary and no one was there.
When my children were born she’s visited weekly but then stopped once they got to 4 months old and now it’s a handful a times a year. She’s told me she’s done her time raising children and doesn’t want to help (completely her provocative but I find it quite isolating not having a village, yes we have friends for emergencies but I would love just to have an hour to have a cuppa with my DH without the kids) They aren’t an age we can use babysitters as they are still young and I’m not comfortable leaving them with strangers.
Guess there isn’t much point to my post, just wanted to vent as it’s coming upto Christmas and I always get a bit sad I don’t have the mum I want. Someone I could call for a chat, feel supported by who would want to spend time with me and my kids.