My amazing DS is 1 this weekend :) it’s been the best year of our lives
I fell pregnant while ‘cycle tracking’ and terminated a few months ago. It had to happen we couldn’t afford 2 nursery fees, we couldn’t cope with the extremely short age gap we’d have and I need to be back at work a bit to be able to take my great maternity benefits again next time. And I majorly struggled this year mentally so I thought I need to work on my mental health before having another child.
I’m feeling weird and guilty because I feel so broody? I see people having babies and think I can’t wait to have another. Then I get the biggest pang of guilt because I could have had another next year :(
I can’t stop the feeling of wow I can’t wait to have another in the future etc and I can’t stop feeling guilty about what I done
i just need to vent I haven’t told anyone what happened with the termination I need to get it out