Fed up, feeling defeated

[Mumof222222]

Hi,

i feel so so done, literally done. I don’t know how much more I can take I know everyone says it’ll only get better but it just keeps getting worse.

my partner got made redundant in October struggled to find somewhere since. I just go a all year job, won’t get paid till after Christmas, after doing seasonal work,( gives me anxiety as I have not done it before and have to walk an hour and a half 3 mornings a week before it even gets light down back roads to get there). he just moved back in this month after splitting for a few months so I just put him onto my universal claim didn’t think anything of it only issue I got told today I’ll get £149 for us two and 2 children no rent or child element for the month because I messed up, put the wrong date of birth for my child and updated 1 week before the assessment month so they haven’t processed any elements but my and partners basic one was up so come 7th I can’t pay rent bills or any school activities.
Of he got his finally work payment on the 8th of £400 so that’s what’s been taken off to leave the £149

on top of this In the last month the washer has broken, oven, tv randomly stopped working, children have been playing up massively, constantly arguing, screaming, crying and there no let up unless they are sleeping, even then that’s hard since they won’t go to bed. They hate sleeping! Bills have obviously gone up so we had basically nothing left, £1 in the bank till 7th and just enough food for the children till then.

I just feel defeated, like what else can go wrong. I went doctors for him to give me a lecture about how I shouldn’t be feeling sad and I’ll get over it.

I’m just sat cold, sick and listening to the kids arguing wishing I would just get hit by a bus I can’t cope. And if we will have a roof over our heads on Christmas Day.

I don’t know what to do or how to make it better.

Speak to your landlord and explain the rent situation will universal credit backdate it?

Have you got anything you could sell? Or any friends/family that could help?

No, my phones not the greatest, neither is his, like I said tv everything broke, no friends or family to help, since they are struggling at the moment as well.

i just don’t get how you can ask for help from the doctor and don’t get it, he made me feel even worse like there’s something wrong with me for feeling like this, I also have really bad anxiety so that doesn’t help. But on top of that the work coach basically said no since it’s my fault it won’t get sorted for this assessment period. And There’s no option to talk to anyone on the phone.

I would try CAB, they will know if you can challenge UC ( don't always take work coaches word for it) They should also know about your local authority's welfare scheme, which should help vulnerable families. Tell them about the rent. Depending on your area there may also be charities that can help. Often Salvation Army or similar.
What age are the children? Health visitors and Children's Centres can be great for finding one off grants, or try pastoral support at the school. I know it can be hard to ask for help but this is a crisis, you have money coming, just not soon enough.
I really hope someone can help.