Always kind of sad but not depressed

[Purpleherring]

I wonder if anyone can relate to this, or feels similar.

I'm early 30s and for as long as I can remember, my emotional baseline has always been 'feeling kind of sad but not sure why'. Like this is how I exist day to day.

I am pretty sure that I am not depressed. I take pleasure in lots of things. I sleep well.

I generally cope well from day to day, there just seems to be this persistent but very vague sense of unease that follows me around. This feeling is present even when I think I feel happy? I know that does not make sense.

Does anyone else feel like this?

Yep. Always waiting for something to go wrong. General dissatisfaction for me. Can’t remember the last time I felt truly joyful. Too much alcohol and lack of exercise make it massively worse, as does winter.

I've had this on and off, I think it happens when I'm not sure of my aims / aspirations at that time. Once I get excited or involved in something emotionally it passes. But of course it does come round as that high of a new 'project' can't be on all the time.

So if you are bothered by the 'what am I really looking for?' questions, then it's not surprising, and I don't know how to deal with these really. Just a possible explanation for the melancholy.
You say yo utake pleasure in many things but are these 'fulfilling' or just nice and pleasurable?

Also some people have strong calling / a talent and they are supported by that through various moods, but many (I include myself) aer all over the place with interests but not that great at any one thing, or just not persistent enough to develop - hence I think these question about you purpose.

Some women (well men too but I think women outweigh) only feel fulfilled when they have children, read that on MN a number of times, like they suddenly feel needed and happy from that.

*questions about your purpose