@Pinkspottyumbrella Ah.. you might not like my reply! I've been through a LOT in my life.. sometimes it's been hard to put one foot in front of the other. But I got through, & that in itself kind of gives you confidence.
Also, it sounds a bit cheesy, but I have a chat with God every morning & thank
Him for my many blessings.. my children, a roof over our heads, enough money to know I could, for example, get a new boiler if ours went on the blink. Again, that in itself makes you realise how fortunate you are.
I haven't always done that.. in my 20's & 30's I was probably so busy & exhausted, as we all are. In my 40's, I think that's a bit of an awkward age.. thinkng that you're halfway through life & what have you achieved? By the time the 50's hit, you realise you're not that special, lol, and there only a few people like, for example, Elon Musk or Richard Branson.. the rest of us bumble along just trying to get things right!
The bigger house, the better car.. they just don't seem as important any more. I'm mid sixties now, by the way, & very much still counting my blessings!
Oh - I should point out that I've had anxiety & depression too.. that can be a downward spiral as you realise a lot of the things put in place to 'help', really don't.. yes, suicide attempts & admissions are biggies, but you get a few days of intense watching & are then thrown back to the wolves, so to speak, so I suppose it's sometimes sink or swim.. I got tough! I realised the only person who could really help me was me, if that makes sense.
I hope this makes sense & that you really CAN change your outlook. :-)