Anyone about? Being admitted to a MH unit

[inablindpanic]

I’m at OOH GP, they’re wanting to admit me for the night due to horrendous panic attacks . I’m currently waiting on GP coming back, he’s given me a 5mg valium and said I’ll be taken to A&E who will medically assess and then hand over to MH assessment unit . I’m terrified . I’ve never been in hospital for MH before .

Drop the attitude @onepieceoflollipop . You've got your experiences, I've got mine. Mine aren't wrong. I'm not saying the way they go about things is unreasonable, that's you who has decided to add that meaning to what I wrote, incorrectly as I didn't mean that at all. OP doesn't know what is happening. She's scared. Knowing what may happen, so it's not unexpected, takes away fear of the unknown. So get lost with your sniping at me. You're not God and you don't know everything.

If you end up on a psychiatric ward and nobody can bring clothes and toiletries for you, the staff can take you home to collect some things then bring you back again. Most staff are good, you get the occasional one with bad attitude like the one who has attacked me on this thread. If you come across one of those just don't bother talking to them about your worries, pick someone else. I hope you feel a bit more like yourself in the morning. You're welcome to PM me if you want. I'm going to leave the thread now.

Doctor’s only just been round, I’m being kept in until psych liaison or someone like that sees me (my choice too, rather see someone). They said that could be a few hours away yet . He’s a lovely doctor . Said they think it is derealisation/ depersonalisation but they said that can feel very disorientating and scary . Slept for two hours . Still feel very strange and muddled but not so frantic . I’ve also got an infection somewhere they think but not sure where or what, said maybe a UTI so might start me on antibiotics . Desperate for a shower and clean clothes but will hopefully get away home later today .

@inablindpanic
all the best to you, sounds like you are getting the most appropriate care at the moment.

as I am sure they have explained, an infection such a a UTI can also affect your mental well-being (plus make you feel quite unwell). This could have triggered your symptoms (I only mention this as it might help to understand it better and that if an infection is part of what triggered this, it may not all have come ‘out of the blue’).

but as other have also said, the depersonalisation, anxiety and panic is also very unsettling snd it’s clearly been a very difficult time for you.

It’s good you could sleep a little and that the doctor was good. Hope someone comes to see you soon.

Derealization is the absolute pits. It's miserable. It will go away though OP. I've had it a few times and it's never lasted longer than 10 days.

@inablindpanic Sorry to hear about the depersonalisation/derealisation. I’ve had depersonalisation for about 7/8 years and I remember how terrifying it is at first. At it’s worst, I found trying to give myself little physical reminders and grounding techniques really helped (squeezing my arms slightly, lightly pinching myself to remind me I’m there, trying to stay in environments not as brightly lit etc). Just take it easy and please try your best not to stress - for most people it comes in little episodes so I’m sure you’ll feel more yourself soon. Take care, thinking of you x

Hope you are soon feeling better OP. A UTI will probably not be helping, they can cause some horrible mental symptoms.

Hope you get the right help soon ❤️

Had a bowl of cereal and cup of tea . They’re saying it could be any time between now and 8pm to see liaison psych as a referrals only just gone in now . Friend is coming to see me after 11 . Nurse said hopefully once psych have been I’ll be able to get home, said I’ll be discharged with diazepam at least but psych might suggest meds changes .

You're doing really well, OP. Hold on tight. PP is correct that UTIs can really be horrible for causing or exacerbating mental health issues.

Been moved to ‘fit to sit’ . Thankfully it’s cooler through here and there’s a TV . Said someone should be through from psych before lunchtime .

Thanks so so so much for messages on here it’s been a huge help .

You're doing really well OP 💐

Not long to wait now. x

They’re just trying to decide whether I can go home with PRN supply and an appointment with crisis team or if I should wait and see psych liaison, they said not leaving without a concrete plan of action in place . I look an absolute state . Breakfast came back up which they’re blaming on the diazepam .

Oh, no! Sounds like they're taking good care of you, OP.

On my way home now . Shower pyjamas and bed . Been told to go to GP surgery before 5 to pick up meds . Shattered beyond belief .

You really want to be properly assessed. Don't slip through the gaps in this system. I'm pleased they are taking this seriously and I hope they give you the help you need.

My daughter constantly slips through the huge gaps in the system and I'm properly scared for her.

Ah, well done, OP. You got through what must have been a difficult night. Rest up, now, and take good care.

It's unlikely she will fall through the system now, the community crisis response service should now assess risk and manage at home, calm the situation down then progress to treatment when she's stable and well.

Get well soon OP

I’ve got crisis team ringing me, as well as service designed to keep people out of hospital, GP’s also ringing me tomorrow and I’ve got a written plan of what to do meantime if xyz happens again . I have got a script for diazepam, they couldn’t provide me with a box to take home unfortunately and don’t feel up to going to chemist tonight but am so tired am not too worried .

I think it’s something like if you have a lot of stress and trauma and horrible stuff my brain normally just sort of files it away quietly to deal with later; trouble is sitting speaking to friend, trust her 100% and everything sort of ‘exploded’ to unmanageable level of distress . I don’t fully get why that happened because I’d had a lovely day . Can’t quite believe I managed to get back on the train home feeling that way though .

This afternoon’s the first time I’ve felt relatively normal since Monday .

How are you feeling this evening, OP?

Better, thank you . Friend went out and got my meds for me, I’ve take the diazepam as prescribed and don’t feel horribly drowsy, just calm and settled . The truly horrendous derealisation has settled too. Feel more back in myself again probably for the first time in a few weeks. Have eaten a bit today and had a shower . I’ve been contacted by crisis team and the team designed to keep at home and both lovely, crisis team especially .

I am glad you are feeling more settled. Home is probably best for you. Home treatment/crisis team are fab.
Hospitals are not relaxing places where you can chill and get sorted. Far from it!

That's good to hear. Hope you continue to improve, and glad you're getting good care.