I work FT. Mix of home and office working. Been in this role for 3 years, working for the company for 30 years. Lately, I cannot get motivated at work. I sit in a daze/dream/haze most of the time. Just doing the basics of the job is hard work & daunting. I have no idea of what is going on around me work wise by colleagues in my wider team, despite weekly catch ups. I should know, enough awareness/sharing is given. It's now got to a stage where I cant ask as it's gone on too long. I'm disorganised, coasting (at best) and see peers at my level exceeding/getting stuck in/commenting in meetings and I sit silent, even in issues that affect my area.
My last review at work was good (surprisingly). I feel like I've been given another chance to buck my ideas up. But I still haven't done so.
At home, I am super organised. I run the house/finances/cleaning/DC/life admin/mental load/everything. I can tell you off the top of my head all our finances, account numbers, cost of individual monthly bills, all DC school dates/events coming up. Yet at work, I cannot even tell you which days of the week we have key periods for technical work (they are the same 2 days, every week). I would have to check my work diary, and even then I would probably question what is really happening during these technical days.
It's not a case that I don't know what to do in terms of how to do the work.. I just find it all so daunting. I don't have a heavy work load, far from it. The work is not stressful. I think it's the fast pace that the work has evolved to (previous roles in the same company never used to be like this, but times have moved on) and the modern day technology (I know how to use this, but I was a whizz at the previous tech we had). We don't have to fulfil a certain quota of work by the end of each day/week and there are no deadlines in my work.
What is wrong with me ?