It’s been a hard 8 months. We run our own business and we are so overwhelmed, it’s permeating thought every single fibre of this household. I’m lonely, overworked and sad.
I’m this time I’ve lost most of friends, I’ve lost myself, my confidence and nearly my life.
Today I went to see my mum. I love her, she’s my best friend and when I walk in her house I feel like I’m home, y’know? The type of place I just let myself in and go straight to the fridge for a glass of wine 😊
My grandad was there today, he’s 89 and since my nana passed away he’s been a recluse. He won’t accept visitors, it’s very hard to get him out the house and he’s a shell of the man he once was. I knew he was coming, and as I haven’t seen him since covid I thought I’d surprise him.
I was always closer to my nana than him, he was usually quite strict, didn’t like noise or fuss - not too keen on children. He was always more interested in reading the FT than being involved in conversations 🤣
When he saw me today, he cried. He stood there and sobbed like a child. He lifted his arms up with as much strength as he could and pulled me in for the biggest most beautiful hug I have ever had in my life.
Naturally this immediately set me off, which set my mum off, which set my uncle, my step dad and my sister in law off.
Now I’m back home I’m a snivelling mess, 4 wines down feeling so unbelievably loved and sad all at the same time.
Theres absolutely no point to this, I just wanted to talk x