I am finding my world is incredibly small, because I'm terrified of doing anything in case I have a panic attack .
I'm in shared accommodation (student), but I'm finding I can't do half the stuff I want to do, because I'm too wound up . I need to desperately put a wash on, but the thought of going to the laundrette panics me . I need to take rubbish out to the bin, but again, when I think about it I panic again . The feelings I get with a panic attack are so horrible it feels like I'm going to die (3 times I've been sent over to A&E by GP) . I picture myself eg going to laundry room, having a panic attack alone and then I end up making excuses in my mind not to go.
So I'm spending most of my day sitting on my bed, staring at a screen - which inevitably makes me feel unwell when I do try to do any exercise - spend so long sitting that standing makes me feel dizzy .
Diagnosed with agoraphobia 10 years ago . But even then I could walk around the house, now I struggle to leave my room .
I don't have a bloody clue what to do. GP is aware, I'm on a list for support, but meantime I feel so alone and terrified all the time, mentally and physically exhausted and cant keep going like this . Just want to feel normal again . Scared this is going to kill me somehow .