Help. Food addiction.

[GhostBridezilla]

I’m really struggling with food addiction. I’m having therapy. I’ve tried every diet. I’m too scared to be anti-diet.
I’m ashamed of myself and all I can think about is how awful I am. And how can all these people just ‘be’ when for me all I can think about is how big I am and how disgusting and out of control I am.

Richard Osman has talked publicly about it. What can I do?!

I desperately want a gastric sleeve but I know it won’t solve my problem.

How's the therapy going?

It is a terrible condition and very hard to break because you can't exactly go cold turkey on food.

I can recommend Overreaters Anonymous. Follows the same 12 step programme as alcoholics anonymous

Long And slow! It stems from childhood trauma where I basically kept myself alive and safe by eating. It was a coping mechanism and the only one I had when I had no one else.
In therapy I’m unpacking these feelings but it’s taken months and I am still so so far away from any sense of being in control.
There’s so much shame around it. I can’t even talk to my closest friends or my DH. I am just so ashamed.

Saxenda! Takes away your appetite. If you’re willing to risk the possible side effects

I’m on saxenda. It worked at first and I lost weight and appetite but I can cheat the Saxenda and still overeat until I feel sick. I’ve had multiple binging episodes on Saxenda.

its also not a long term solution, lots and lots of people return to their pre Saxenda eating habits and weights once they’re off the Saxenda. It’s not a miracle drug and you still need to stick to a calorie deficit when on it.

I find it impossible to stick to a calorie deficit for longer than three days before I derail.

the Saxenda controls my hunger to an extent although I haven’t lost a lb in three months now. I am now terrified to stop the Saxenda for fear of it all getting worse than now.

I also know that it isn’t really dealing with the source of the problem.

I did OA years ago and have looked on and off since. I will have a look and see if there’s a meeting near me.