Years and years of poor mental health, the last year things have been really quite bad - worst I’ve ever had . Previously I’ve been able to reasonably live day to day life but can’t just now at all .
My GP said last week she was going to refer me on for more help .
Someone rang me last night to do a mental health assessment, they were on the phone for over an hour asking me stuff about all sorts from very early childhood right up to present day . Dozens and dozens of questions .
At the end of the call he said I would highly benefit from CMHT involvement, and said he would discuss with them with a view to them seeing me within the next 2-4 weeks . Supposedly they can still reject the referral but if they do they have to provide clinically justified alternatives .
I’m absolutely stunned . I’ve had counselling more than a dozen times but always end up unwell again - he said that’s probably because it’s acting as a sticking plaster and never treating the underlying issues causing the symptoms in the first place . I got told a couple of years ago I’ve either got EUPD or complex ptsd, he said last night almost certainly Complex ptsd
a) everything we talked about last night is now fresh in my mind where normally it’s pushed out - which means I’m feeling bloody awful, almost like hungover this morning .
b) I’m also a bit panicked, does a CMHT referral mean they think this is more serious than I’m realising? He did say it’s crisis prevention and rehab/treatment .
He did say to see it like a physical illness where if you weren’t getting better alone you’d be seen by specialists and supported - which is probably a good thing - but, I kept thinking I could sort things out myself so it’s hard to admit/accept I need help !