I feel very sad as I had another bad experience at social event. I went to a work do yesterday and I was so very awkward each conversation, didn’t feel like a part of the group (I only work 2 days a week), didn’t feel comfortable, just wanted to go home, even tho really wanted to have a good time. I’m for a different country which doesn’t help !
It was always hard for me to make friends, I need a lot of time to start to feel comfortable around someone, I just wish people actually saw me as an interesting person to speak to, I can be funny, I just can’t do large groups as I always feel intimidated and “worse” than everyone. Could really do with some advice on how to be more confident and “interesting” for others, fit well better within a group. It was the same at school, uni and now jobs. It makes me feel very insecure and isolated. I have a loving husband and group of friends but I just want to be better at social contacts, never feel like anyone else in a group had the same problem, just me being outsider for no apparent reason.