I really regret watching it

[Plantmum2047]

I feel like absolute shit tonight. I feel really anxious, sad, worried. I keep having to go to the toilet (sorry tmi)
I felt okay this morning until for some reason I decided to watch "help" on Netflix with Jodie Cormer . Anyone who hasn't watched its about working in a care home during the pandemic. I didn't realise it was set in the pandemic or I probably wouldn't have watched. Her acting is excellent and it's so well made but I am deeply painfully grieving for my granny I lost a year ago and who spent her final years in an albeit good nursing home. Due to the pandemic and a traumatic family event, I didn't see her as much as I'd have liked to in the final 2 years of her life. I know millions of people are in my position.
I'll never speak to her or cuddle her again and I just feel so desperately sad.

I’m so sorry for your loss, and for the fact that this programme has (understandably) upset you so much.

I hope you can have a restful evening; maybe watch something silly and light to help take your mind off the awful thoughts you’re having. 💐

Thank you @waterlego I just feel so sad. Not helped by the fact I'm on my own as I usually am. I just wish I could cuddle her or hold her hand again 😢
Watching strictly and will have a bath shortly. Just had a little cry.

A big (()) from me. I'm sure she knew how much you loved her (Nans do)

I know exactly what you mean @Plantmum2047 . I started watching it but I just couldn't finish it. Made me feel very sad from the bit i saw. I lost both my nan's during covid, within 3 months of each other. One passed away in hospital and I hadn't seen her at her home for the last 3 months because of covid, the hospital were kind enough to let me in to see her the day before she passed but she was sleeping and I didn't want to wake her. My other granny had dementia and was in a nursing home so we weren't allowed in at all for months before, even the morning she passed away i was with my mam and other family members and we were outside her window looking in as she took her last breath, because again covid had everything locked down and no visits allowed. 💔 Hugs to you x

Bless your heart, sending you lots of love. Have a cosy evening and have a naughty treat if you’ve got anything nice in!

I agree with the others. Have a nice treat and take it easy, be kind to yourself. Normal for a show to evoke some not so nice feelings. Can you call a friend? Hope you’re feeling better soon.