For a few years I’ve had a semi crush on my friend’s cousin, who I see maybe once a year if that. I have been in relationships throughout the time we’ve known each other (not now) and they are currently in one. I am paranoid that friend realises so try and be as breezy as possible about it, obviously not sure how well I fare. I’m friendly around him but not overboard and try to act natural.
its not a huge crush and when we’re not together I don’t think about them, it’s more one of those where you think there may be some chemistry and wonder what would have happened if the timing etc had been right.
i just can’t help but feel that I’ve made a massive fool of myself and everyone thinks it’s hilarious?! I want to be dignified about it and the next time I see them to be completely over it, reinvent myself, not seen pathetic. Does this make any sense at all? Is it possible?