I've been very very stressed recently. In a crappy relationship, had a horrible injury to deal with, been very teary and upset a lot, for months.
My last relationship was even worse, but I did a lot of work on myself, got over that as best I could, felt much better, things were going well. I went for someone completely different to my ex and felt not much could go wrong-this relationship is also wrong but for completely different, unrelated reasons.
Anyway, I have been very stressed and been through a lot-started 'conditioning' myself to not be bothered about my needs and struggled on.
I have began doing this thing where I read things over and over again. Fixate on them. Mostly things like old Mumsnet threads I've started, old reddit threads. I watch programmes and clips over and over again, sometimes serious ones of films I like, sometimes silly ones like BGT clips I find either funny, or make me cry. I do this on repeat. I have began this thread because I was just about to look up an old thread I started-an AIBU thread where everyone was on my side, am I perhaps looking for validation?
Sometimes they're years old.
Does anyone else do this, or could anyone tell me why anyone would?
Sometimes if I am out and about and not comfortable with my surroundings I do it to distract myself too.
I have tried searching the 'net but not found much other than a couple of 'memes' that say anxiety sometimes causes people to watch the same tv programmes over and over. This is a bit different to that plus I couldn't find any sources for it.