Sorry this might be long but I feel as if I need to get it all off my chest. So, I’ve always been someone who suffers with quite low moods. But they’ve never been as intense as I’m feeling right now and I normally bounce back from them quite quick. I’ve been feeling like this non stop now for a couple of weeks.
I don’t want to leave the house. Not even to the shop that’s 5 minutes away. Not even for a walk. Not even to my mums house which is usually my happy place. I still want/need to see my mum but I feel as if I want her to come here instead which is very unusual for me. My DS plays football and I sometimes go with dp to watch him but I don’t feel up to it at the moment.
I have 3 close friends. 2 of them live near me and see them quite regularly. I don’t feel like I want to see them at the moment which makes me feel awful because they are so lovely and have done nothing wrong. My other close friend lives 3 hours away so I don’t see her much but we text a few times a week. She messaged me a few hours ago but I haven’t opened it yet because I don’t feel like talking to her. Again this makes me feel awful😞
Me and DP are going on a child free weekend away in a couple of weeks. I am looking forward to it, but not as half as much as I normally would which is really confusing me.
I have no interest in reading, which is something I normally enjoy. I just want to be left alone really but I don’t at the same time🤷🏻♀️If I had the choice to lie in bed all day I probably would which is not like me.
Although it’s only been a couple of weeks I’ve been feeling like this, I feel as if this is my life now and I don’t know how to get my normal life/feelings back.
Sorry for the really long post!